and the truth is,
i'm done pretending.
done pretending to be someone i wasn't.
someone whom i thought was understanding.
whom i thought knew how to handle and balance.
someone whom wasn't possessive.
nor spiteful.
nor bitter.

but i was.
and it took all of me to realise that i am.
it wasn't easy, i kid no one.
to come before Him, and humble my heart, and admit that im wrong.

and so,
all of you, who see only what you want to see.
i'll say, don't just look at things from either side.
and stand up for me just because i'm your friend.
because, i can be wrong.
and i am.

and don't let me hear you say once more,
that i'm worth so much more.
because after today's revelation, i see a really ugly image of myself.
and for the fact that he took so much more crap from me than i did from him.
it's only fair for me to say,
it's me who should be asking for forgiveness, and another chance.
yet he stuck through; loving me still.

and if i still ask for more
what right do i have left to love?

i'm done with loving so defensively and selfishly.
i'm through with paper masks and masquerades.
now if you would just give me a chance.
i'll show it to you.
...

Bon Jovi- In These Arms