it has been a very very long weekend.
not only for me, for my family too, especially my mom and dad.
it has not only been taxing physically, but all the more emotionally.
and she taught me how to point a finger without having to spell things out.
i guess, that's the correct way to go about doing things.
if you ask me, how i'm feeling now.
i'd say, i could be better.
it's a first, and i don't want a second.
selfishly, i'd say i'd rather go on before anyone else does.
this way i don't need to face it again.
i still wish that you can come back here, and hold me tight in your arms like how you used to.

and if you put it that way,
then i really don't see myself as a friend,
because you not only did it, you did it graciously with all perks.
but so what,
it doesn't really matter anymore.
it's because of you, i've learnt how to not care.

i'll give them both a hug each day, and tell them that i love them.
with all my heart.