i'm back from a very interesting night.
you know how it's like to be sucked into a certain thing
which just catches up with you
and soon it overwhelms you?
well- it's sad that the vacuum seem to be not working.
at least not for me.
it's like trying to fit two different pictures together,
yet no matter how hard you try, it just doesn't go.
so if i find myself slowing down to a stop, i'll see,
just how separate everything around me is.
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i'm posting up a few photos (finally)
i'll go by the order i captured the different pictures.


THIS is seriously the most hideous motorcycle i've ever seen.
like OKAY. sunflowers are NICE.
but woah.this is just too much.


this is the tubing system that links every place in TTSH.
i think its damn cool. like behind the walls, tubes of such kind are actually travelling in all directions!


guess what are those funny little things that i circled!
>>insert: that's FB's hand!
want a closer look?


how about this?
don't think you guys will ever know.
they are actually TENNIS BALLS. flatten to the core by buses that drive over them.
i got this picture at YCK mrt.
it so cool. the drain is like decorated with these tennis balls.

and lastly,

my PTBF(:
who lent me his NUMBER FOUR when i was feeling cold. (i still don't like that name)
i still stand by what i said about it smelling FUNNY. hohoho.
say. the play was good(:
and you can lend me the book when you get it.
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i wanna go HONGKONG.
i reallyreallyreallyreally wanna go there.
FB and PTBF get to back to me SOON!(:
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and to myself:

i will extol You, O Lord, for You have lifted me up, and have not let my foes rejoice over me.
O Lord my God i cried out to You, and You have healed me.
O Lord You have brought my soul up from the grace;
You have kept me alive that i should not go down to the pit.

Process of genuine repentance (based on the story of the prodigal son)[luke 15]
1)change my mind(and stick to it dorinda)
2)make the right decision(and don't regret letting go, please)
3)confess my sins.
4)remember that He sees me from afar;
5)and is moved by compassion
6)He is running to meet me.
7)and has a robe of righteousness prepared for me.
8)He will restore my authority;
9)and entrust me with ministry.

A sinner is someone whose conduct offends God and who continually turns her back on Him.
but the heart of the Lord yearns for total restoration of His relationship with every person on earth.
through the prophet isaish, the Lord said
"when you spread out your hands, I WILL HIDE MY EYES FROM YOU; even though you make many prayers, I WILL NOT HEAR, your hands are full of blood."
it is vital that i know, and continue to keep in mind that sins are like CHAINS that bind my feet tight, and make me unable to walk.

didn't i say a few days ago i was waiting for answers to fall down on me?
it's not only starting to rain, but it's starting to pour.
how He places the revelation to all my questions and doubts upon my heart,
of why and how i saw nothing,
could do nothing.
and am nothing.

i rebuke you for trying to make me think that it's all but hope.
for now i trust and i know, it's all within control.