yesterday night was what i really needed to make things turn around.

[amelia] Today's(300507) devotional is beautiful for both of us. Read Psalm 13. It says that in such times, we are vulnerable to wrong assumptions and conclusions about life, about God, and about prayer. In psalm 13, david wrestled with the problem of unanswered prayer. he questioned why the world was so dangerous and pleaded for answers from God. It's a hard psalm that david sang, and it seems to be one of frustration. Yet, in the end, his doubts and fears turned to trust. Why? because the circumstances of our struggles cannot diminish the character of God and His care for His children. In verse 5, david turned a corner. From his heart he prayed "but i have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation" in the pain and struggle of living without answers, we can always find comfort in our heavenly father.

yesterday night, i decided to take a walk and ended up at a park furthur down the road. it was 12.30 in the morning. the isolation was perfect. it was just something i need to jolt me into solitude. which i did. and this was the first time, i admitted out loud as to how i felt about whoever, how helpless the situation seems, and how innocent she is.

though i know that it's impossible to get out of it just yet, but i trust in time to come, my paths will be made straight. because i said before, having being left hanging for a few months straight is never a good feeling- it has driven me crazy.

you can term it as "i slept on it" but i know, and you know that in actual fact, more than that happened. and i'm thankful for it.
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on a lighter note:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOWLY :D

we came a long way girl, and i'm thankful that you're in my life.
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the week is ending! or should i say, i only have 3 more days left. well, no matter what the outcome, i'm sure it's the verdict that He placed upon me.