there's so much for me to look forward too, but before that, i need to get over the last 2 hurdles- prelims and A levels.

i've never looked forward to any time/occassion as much as im looking forward to the post As. there's this whole list of activities that i've been longing to do:

1. reallyy let my hair down and play
2. spend alot alot more time with my WHOLE family.
3. spend more time with alvin
4. enjoy christmas like never before.
5. go on a mission trip
6. find a job
7. learn how to drive.
8. and start attending church again.

it's because of the As, and many many other factors in play, that i can't fufil most of the 8 things i've listed for the past 4 years. and now i'm actually at the edge of "teenage zone". whoa. it suddenly hit me that time really flies.

the june holidays has somewhat cause a change in my personaility. i'm now more of a home freak, and much much more a loner. come to think of it, it really isn't that bad. cause afterall, i can skip the phase of having to ask myself to stay at home, settle down and study. not that im studying alot now. erps.
...

things are different now.
and i don't see myself wanting to change it back the way it was before.
not that i actually care that much.
hmmm.
maybe things aren't the way they seem.
...

but then again, they might be.