i wish i could stop being a clown
tear away the facade that's hiding me.
and stop trying to be someone else.
i wish i chosen the unknown to the unbearable truth.
i wish i could have handled it better, but it seems pointless now.

i wish i could walk out of the shadows i'm living in.
trying to remember what happened,
hoping to figure out why it happend.
i wish i could go back to the time when i still had a choice
and if i could, i'd rather not have made this decision.

i guess its time i let it all go,
telling myself everything's alright even though it isn't.
all pleasures the same
they just keep me from trouble
shut the world from me- like dorian gray
i hear all the advise that people give me
but i'm not giving myself more worries
you can't describe it,
it just tears and rain
...

my interpretation of tears and rain, james blunt.