i don't need any backing. says:
i have doubts about myself
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
in studies ar?
i don't need any backing. says:
err everything loh
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
huh no lah
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
i tink u r really great
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
u r gonna b a successful person in life in e future
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
u r really sensible and mature and reliable n responsible
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
and nice to ppl
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
n smart and knowledgeable
i don't need any backing. says:
wahhh im not that great lah
i don't need any backing. says:
really
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
nah
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
u r
[ Freakshow ] Feels like im wasting my effort and time says:
really..i can tell
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i'm starting to worry for my future. ha. what future. everyone out there is going all out to take S papers. me? i think it's a waste of time. even if i want to, i don't qualify for it. everyone is scrambling for scholarships. me? i know nuts about it. i don't even know what i want to do in future. what i want to major in. i don't even know whether or not i can make it into a good university.

it's so scary. how reality becomes so clear. how time passes so quickly that it gives no second chances. i'm beginning to realise that i've taken alot of things for granted. things aren't the way they used to be. opportunities aren't presented to me like they were back in secondary school.

i'm starting to feel- left behind.

these few days i've been thinking, about alot of things. you. us. me. my family. studies. and alot on my future. i suddenly feel so insecure and scared. i realise i don't have much time left. i need to start bracing myself for the future. yet, i don't know where to began.

i'm lost.

like phoon, i think tonight, i will be wrapped up in my blanket, sitting on my bed, thinking.
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thanks tintin. :D but i really can't measure up to all those you mentioned.