sound of rustling
swirling in the breeze
washing at my feet
the wonders of the wind
walking up the path of sweet bitterness.
...

let's not talk about what happened this morning(: lol. okay so after vjc's teachers' day celebration, all the nanyang girls met up [ah! i didn't know there were quite a handful of us. lol. compared to previous years lah(: ] and we ended up taking 5 cabs down to nanyang. reached there around 10.20am. wasn't exceptionally excited to go back, and everyone admitted going back to meet up with friends rather then teachers. =/ erps. most probably true, since mrs janet ng is no longer based in nanyang, but at least ng's there. hohoho. gave her a card and caught up with her and stuff.

met alot of people that i havent seen for a really really long time! hee -smiles- but was feeling kinda antisocial i guess. didn't go for lunch with the class, instead ended up lunching with amelia and ju-nian [is that how you spell her name =/] at j8. j8 is deprived. can't find anything i want there. speaking about that, i want to go shopping! maybe i'll just go shopping tomorrow. ahh. but i want to play mahjong! asked quite a few souncillors, waiting for replies now. but i have a strong feeling i'll end up going to school to mug. =/ boo. shall go town for a shopping spree soon. (:

went home. the afternoon was really hot. gosh the sun was just shining for all it's worth. thought it was a really good time to go sun tanning! lol. plus i wanted to swim. reached home, and found mom watching television. kept her company for a while, and went back to my room. it was around 4pm? lay on my bed, which was the biggest mistake ever, cause i zonked out in minutes and ended up napping til 7.35pm! and i wouldn't have waken up if not for my mom who came into the room and switched off the air conditioner. lol. blah. there goes my afternoon. =(

was kinda grumpy during dinner, most probably due to the fact that i was dragged out of bed =/ lol. but cheered up after that and watched a bit of television before showering. i'm simply dying of boredom. cause there's nothing nice to watch and nothing to do. maybe for once i can empathise with phoon. LOL. but he's the extreme lah. by the way he looked damn good today, with the shirt and everything.(: nice dance too! s15 rawks(: then i started mass smsing people randomly to ask whether they could make it for mahjong tomorrow. and guess what.

i thought that tomorrow was wednesday!
what a ridiculous thought.

so i got waikin, jasmine and jiahao puzzled and befuddled as to what the hell i was talking about. lol. anyway. the wonders of sleeping for 3 hours and yet still find your brain drowning in butter. boo. alright. a rather incoherant post to end the day.

lost in time once again.

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it's a wonder, how sometimes you're just feeling so high, and the next moment melancholy. well. i'm feeling that right now. just moments ago, i was still feeling, well. alright.

i've many regrets in life. and my biggest one is that i didn't handle the situation well. no. not at all. 4 years. ended in 1 morning. just like that. running away is not going to help. i thought i managed to face up, accept the fact and moved on with life. taking it as though it was nothing at all, no loss, no pain, no tears, no regrets. how wrong it was when all is still a reality. i don't know whether you're feeling the same way too.

it's pain.
i lost count as to
how many tears i've dropped
cause of you.
it was a huge loss.
to me.
filled with remorse.
and regrets.

you've hurt me.
did i hurt you too?
i'm sorry if i did.

immature we were. and we acted as though we didn't know each other anymore. facades can't hide the emotions, raging within. and as i can't hold back any longer, a single tear came down. burning with a sense of guilt, there's nothing more i wish for but to turn back time.

and maybe
just maybe
i'll be able to change things.
even though it's just maybe
at least i can tell myself.
i've tried.


i've tried.