i will wait- i said so myself.the certain rules and guide lines that you wanna set for us, even though i have a feeling as to what they're gonna be, and my head do agree, yet my heart is hoping that you will never spell it out. you know, making it definite.i don't think i'll call you every night.but you'll never know that there's a silly someone waiting every night, hoping against hope to receive a phone call from you. i didn't dare to look you in the eye to tell you i agreed with what you just said, cause i was afraid that you'll see the tears that were swelling up, lucky for me, it was your turn to alight. so near yet so far.i don't want you to make decisions cause of how i feel. i want you to make decisions based on how you feel. only then will you be happy, won't you? as i said, i'll just sit and wait for an answer.frankly speaking, there's lots of time ahead, it's not a matter of a 'yes' or a 'no'. it's a matter of you and. urgh please, don't take a step forward and two steps back. that's what you're doing right now- you're feeling so unsure, i can sense it. whether you make the final decision to take a step forward or backwards or just be stationary, tell me, and stick to it. don't leave me hanging, please.i don't know how long i'll last, but i'm sure that God is in charge here. i'm praying praying that He'll give me an answer. soon. i'm sorry. but i feel myself going into seclusion. don't feel like i can tell you what's on my mind right now. or should i say what's in my heart now.let me bury myself in the pile of notes that i need for promos.maybe i'll feel better. really?