would you believe if i told you that i was waiting for that conversation to come? the contents and all that were said. amazingly, God told me so. but whatever it is, i'm glad we had that conversation.
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oh. i read this particular paragraph in the book.

"a good friend, matt canlis, modeled the idea of guarding a girl's purity in his relationship with julie clifton, the woman to whom he's now married. long before they began pursuing marriage, both felt deeply attracted to each other. but during a certain season, God made it clear to julie that she had to focus on Him and not be distracted by matt.

although matt didn't know this at that time, he made it his priority to guard julie's heart during this time of waiting, even though he felt personally drawn to her. matt controlled his desire to flirt with julie. he passed up opportunities to spend time alone with her, and when they were in group settings he refrained from singling her out and focusing too much attention on her. he avoided doing anything that would make it harder for julie to focos on serving God."

you can never believe how similar this situation sounds. maybe now you'll come to understand some of the things i've said. and why sometimes i choose to clam.
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i hate it when i feel like going to church, but yet i can't. and the feeling's even worse when you are out on a saturday night, and you see one of your church mates along the street. now what will they think about that. why isn't she in church but yet she can hang around in town? even though i'm out and i can go for service if i wanted to, but at the expense of me having to lie to my parents about it? don't even think about.
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