i can't fight this feeling any longer
and yet i'm still afraid to let it flow.
what started out as friendship has grown stronger
i only wish i had the strength to let it show.
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i've been feeling very blah the past few days. and no. for once, it has nothing to do with mood swings. sigh. i gotta get this out of my head, but it just keeps coming back, at the most odd of times.- like when i'm desperately trying hard to concentrate during lectures, or when i'm in the midst of having fun.
dorinda, stop pretending that it's all gonna be alright when you're not doing anything about it. really. even i am exasperated with you. urgh. sigh. even sonia couldn't give me an answer. the irony of all these is that she's in a pretty similiar sticky situation as i am in now.
is it really in human nature to expect more or is it just me? i'm taking a step forward and two steps back. i don't know what the hell i'm doing. this just has to stop. please don't leave it hanging, cause the feeling's really horrible. the human heart is a funny thing. it goes against all logic, all principles and all kinds of reasoning. it's just not like me to move on so fast- that's something i've yet to come to terms with.
i dont' trust myself. do you?
i'm drowning out there and you're doing nothing about it.
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now.
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please wake me up when the time is right.
