raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens
brown paper packages tied up with string
these are a few of my favourite things.

cream coloured ponies and crisp apple strudels.
doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
these are a few of my favourite things.

girls in white dresses and blue satin sashes
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
silver white winter that melt into spring
these are a few of my favourite things

when the dog bites
when the bee stings
when im feeling sad
i simply remember my favourite things
and i then i don't feel- so bad.

why don't i feel better?):
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i'm having a really bad day. i just don't know why. i feel myself sinking into another bolt of depression again. and i'm starting to feel very very useless. i can't even get a simple thing done. and i suck big time at all my papers. so much for going for chemistry tuition, which resulted in sonia getting an A for her chemistry and me a C. and it was filled with nothing but stupid mistakes. how dumb can i get. disconnected.

i was suppose to finish my chemistry tutorial, read through biology practical and organise my sdd stuff today after school. rigghht. how organised can i get lah. everything was everywhere and my lousy memory just can't seem to remember all the different datelines and i seem to have misplaced the ones that i wrote down. -.- urgh. took a really long time for me to get everything into place and vet the proposals that my adhoc members handed up to me. how slow can i get. deviod.

andd i was reading through biology practical and i didn't know how to start that damn thing. like what the hell lah. might as well not take biology right. don't know this don't know that. gah. and instead of starting on chemistry after that, i ended up sleeping for one whole freaking hour. such a waste of time. hence i ended up leaving school only at 9.40pm. disturbed.

maybe i should just go and get brain tumour or something. since i'm always having constant headaches and my left forehead feels painful when i raise my eyebrows or apply a force against it. devastated.
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if you didn't realise, everything that has a negative meaning attached to it starts with the letter 'd' and it's perfect for dorinda.
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i feel like i'm such a bitch. okay. if you're wondering whether you read that wrongly, no you didn't.
it's always a battle between my head and my heart. ):
one day i shall just go nuts and pull both of them out.
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i need someone to pull me out of this vacuum that i'm being sucked into.
but as usual, no one ever seems to be there. never.