i guess i've let off enough steam last night.

i sat in my bedroom and screamed my lungs out into the pillow. and after dad went upstairs to sleep, i went to the living room and sat on the couch until it was 2+. i like the house i'm living in. but i like it even better at night- when it's all quiet and dark. that's when serenity sets in. even though the garden isn't exactly the best place to view stars, but it will do just fine.(: i remember myself sitting outside at the porch for hours after everyone has gone to bed. no it isn't exactly like stoning, it's just- not thinking of anything. uh huh,okay i think i'm not making much sense. *shrug*

don't know what's got into me the past few days. guess there's so much for me to do and yet so little time. sdd is nerve wrecking. my studies are moping on it's deathbed. and the house is always so quiet and empty. whenever i return home- i'll be returning to an empty house.): it didn't help that my mom went to korea yesterday. and my dad have to work, plus my brother is always out. if not he'll be home with his girlfriend. my erjie is forever in the hospital and needless to say, my dajie is all the way in australia.bah. and my dad won't even be in town this sunday. like what the. it's fathers day and he has to be overseas on work.-.- give me a break. and i was suppose to go ice skating with jang.von.ching.and justin tomorrow, but because of sdd meeting, i can only join them for dinner.): mr goh couldn't make it on thursday. -.- blah. i can sense that the rest of this week won't be good- maybe only friday. will be going sentosa then. yayness.

anyway, i won't be surprised if i have to drop biology after the examinations. i haven't started on it, and i'm not planning to touch physics until the day before or something.=/ shiong wei is so gonna get me fried. i'm only done with chemistry and halfway through mathematics. i'm so dead. don't know why i can't just settle down to study. -.-that day in the car, mom just suddenly told me "ni de xin heng san ahr" which means my heart is neithe here nor there. it's don't-know-where. -.- haiyah. just can't concentrate. bah.

had enough of everything and anything. grrr.):
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anyway i'm bored. so here's what people do to kll boredom. ahh the idiosyncrasyness.

Name 20 friends without looking at the questions and answer the questions with regard to your friend of the corresponding number.

1) sonia.
2) huilin.
3) phoon.
4) xunai.
5) tin tin.
6) nicholas
7) hahaha.john mark.
8) charis
9) charlene.
10) tiffany
11) phyllis
12) jang
13) jiahao
14) mingyi
15) amanda
16) bryon
17) shanru
18) alvin
19) waikin
20) chinhow.

Who is #8 going out with? lol. that's quite an obvious fact. x) ask any sc and they'll tell you.lol.
Is #9 a boy or a girl? girl of cause, and she's also my pillar of strenght in sdd((:
Would #11 and #2 go out? definitely a no-no. both are girls andd they're 100% straight(:
How about #18 and #4? lol.i can't predict the future? but why not. lol.
What grade is #17 in? jc1.
When was the last time you talked to #12? erm like 1 second ago. infact i'm talking to her right now.((:
What is #6's favorite band? oh that i'm not so sure.
Does #1 have any siblings? yup. 1 naughty and cheeky younger brother.
Would you ever date #3? lol.why not? if the heart permits thats if.
Would you ever date #7? lol. in my dreams man. he's already attached. nyehh. ask charis((: but i swear he's damn cute!((: hiak.
Is #16 single? yup. he better be, cause he promised to tell me when he gets attached! hohoho.
What's #15's last name? tee.
What's #5's middle name? tin yau.
What's #10's fantasy? find a nice husband and settle down.
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? lol. they're both nice and easy going people. why not ask them?
Tell me a random fact about #11? she rocks.(: and is my favourite senior from nanyang basketball(:
Have you ever had a crush on #16? obviously not. how can i have a crush on my younger brother?! lol.
Are #5 & #6 best friends? nope. they're just mere accquaintances.
Does #7 like #20? erm. i don't think they even know each other. besides, both aren't gay
How did you meet #15? through guides.(: similarly she was from nanyang basketball too.((: