i'm so gonna keep a log book for sdd so that next year i can let my junior who's gonna be the next sdd adhoc i/c view it. it's been so busy that i can't believe that it's already like may? gosh. i feel old.-.- all i can ever remember of my jc life after jae was match support. meetings. match support. more meetings. carrying chairs. more meetings. more match support. and a little bit of hanging out with my great class.): i hate it when my life is so packed. but then again, i'll feel empty if i get too much free time on hand.

i'm seriously lagging in my studies. i need chemistry tuition! urgh. i need it bad. i need it quick. i needta get my chemistry right first, together with physics and mathematics even before i can even talk about managing my biology.-.- and block test is coming really soon. one month away. and i'll definitely not have the time to study for it during the june holidays. so yup.study dorinda. look at how far you're lagging behind. dots. but i'm glad that chinhow offered help! getting tuition from him soon.lol.((:

sdd is freaking me out too. not exactly freaking out. hmmm. don't really know how to go about saying it. oh well..can just say that i don't really have much confidence in myself. i'm just "boldy" going ahead with the decisions i'm making..after consulting my beloved vice i/c [charlene]..but still i don't feel safe. oh well.i should start learning to work without ng. i know it's funny to say this, but i miss having her around to guide me. guess she really made a difference.): yeah. i worry about not being able to make it a night that the j2s will enjoy. i worry about not meeting datelines cause i myself actually forget about them.-.- i worry about not getting enough people to go down cause this year it's at marina madarine.gosh. i wonder why some people can be so materialistic.=/ i worry about practically everything. maybe i don't show them lol. God please take charge~

pw groups are out. and i'm quite glad to say that i'm happy with mine.((: more than happy actually. lol. i have enjie.stella.peien and nelson with me.(: i'm sure we'll be able to work together well! it's a God given group. i can feel it in my bones. even for sdd.((: both groups are really God given.(: to those out there that are feeling quite urgh about their groups or sour about stuff, well maybe should learn to let go and think maybe there's a reason why you're in the group. afterall, everything happens with a reason.(: that got refreshed in my memory yesterday night while doing quiet time. everything happens with a reason. its just that we don't know what.(:

oh yes.sdd adhoc'05 (: you guys don't know how glad i am to have you guys in my adhoc.((: it's God given i tell you. hee. firstly out of 10 SCs, 8 are christians..emotionally i know i can get the support already. and even so, everyone of them are capable in their own unique ways. helping me in every aspect. especially charlene.(: though she can be very lame.gosh. but still.she's my pillar of support!(:

dorinda.
charlene.
cheok.
grace.
francis.
charis.
jasmine.
rachel.
john.
shikin.
roy.
that's for now. we'll have one more new member after house com member joins in.(:

meanwhile i'm still settling some issues in my life. just had a redshirts meeting today..oh well.it didn't turn out that bad.(: and no matter what, i believe it will be for the better. also, i managed to get CT and housecom working together with the SCs for sdd.((: i don't see why people should have a segregation concept. i shan't elaborate. we're all victorians at the end of the day. so what's with SCs being "higher" then the rest lah.-.- sheesh.

and please don't say anything..i'll cry if i have to know the truth. no please no. i'd rather keep it this way..do i? hmmm. maybe.