i guess i'm still in my state of shock.=/ soccer guys lost to MJ. it was a damn close fight. all the way til sudden death. i know everyone tried their best, i know i did. yongfeng performed well today(: i guess thats the first time i'm saying it about him. i think this match really served two purposes very well.

1) let the soccer guys know what's defeat. for all matches they've played, they won easily. even though they were very scared about the match today, i'm sure they put in their best and that all the victorians still have faith in their skills(: you guys still are the best.
2) it represented a slap in the redshirts faces. at least for me. it woke us up. even after we tried our best, all of us, putting in our 110% effort into cheering our hearts out, but why? why did we still lose?

it strucked us that the problem about not having effective match supports was not mainly due to us trying our best. no. it was due to our unity. even though we tried our best, but our 'best' clashed with each other. i don't know whether you guys understand what i'm trying to say.=/ blah. so yup. tonight the meeting, though short, but it bonded us alot more then whatever other bonding sessions we ever had. it was the first time too, that we pumped ourselves.

waikin showed me his domineering side today. it made him respect him 10 times more. at least he proved his worth for me believing so much in him(: i never saw that side of him before and i was quite surprised when he did show it. but well, that's good. at least i respect him more. lol(: also, i broke the wall between yongfeng and me today. that's good too(: i sat next to him on the bus on the way back, and it felt weird but good to firmly take his hand and grasped it tightly. that form of encouragement is by far the best(: and i've never sat next to yongfeng in a bus before. [cause of certain issues that we have yet to settle] blah.): and tonight we cleared everything. so yeahh..it feels good.

lastly, i think today's match was God's wrath on us redshirts. i don't know. but though he was spoken to me about respecting authority. any authority that is above you is chosen by God. appointed in his name, for whatever reason/purpose we don't know. though i've been trying to respect yongfeng but i just couldn't. not all the way until today's match. i honestly say that it was the first match that i ever supported him so wholeheartedly before, but yet we lost.

if he is with us, who can be against us?

yet we still lost. ohwell. nevermind. i had a choice, and i chose to learn it the hard way):

i realise it even more that vj is a harsh and critical and cruel society. i shan't elaborate. but it is. that's a side of the school that is undercovered. so real yet so fake. maybe that's something i have to learn to take up and get use to. nanyang wasn't like that, in fact, i'm starting to miss nanyang more and more.):