i'm starting to feel as if i've got no one in this world to turn to.=/ i don't know why, but everyone that i talk to just doesn't seem to be able to understand what i'm trying to say, and needless to say, how i really feel.

i think i've been trying too hard.
for what?
for everything.
maybe if i put a little less effort in this and that i would have found it easier to cope.

i feel detached from the class.
yes i do.i don't even feel the passion that i use to have..not even to a single person.
people may see it in a way that it's cause of council.
but then again, i feel detached from council too.
=/
i don't know.
sometimes i don't know why i'm working so hard for.
in the end i achieve nothing
cause i still feel apart from everyone.
alienated.
maybe i'm some freak loner.
hmm maybe.

i haven't really sat down with anyone to talk seriously for a long time.
you know those sessions that you call "heart to heart talk"
maybe cause i've been so busy that i can't find the time.
but then maybe it's just cause i can't seem to open myself up to them yet.

recently, i don't think i've been myself.
cause i really can't be bothered.
don't want to be bothered
and shan't be bothered by stuff anymore.
i want my carefree days in vjc back.