i'm feeling particularly pissed and annoyed now. don't ask me why. i don't know why. in fact i'm pissed and annoyed at everything that is going in my life like RIGHT NOW.

had enough.

i so freaking need to wait for all the freaking results to come out. like whatever lah. everything on the same day. and it's like what, on MONDAY? that's so irritating cause i have to spend the weekend trying to remind myself not to freak out. but being the usual, pessimistic me, i highly doubt that i can STOP FREAKING OUT. darn.

everyday. constantly. every second. i tell myself to push all negative thoughts to the back of my head, to push aside and brush off whatever comments i may hear. but in the end i won't be able to do it. and then the vicious cycle will start all over again. i tell myself not to care about how others look at me, as long as i have tried my best, it's all what matters. but somehow i get affected. i screwed everything up. no one can screw it worse then me.

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i had a dream. i dreamt that i got 17 points. wonderful. all i gotta do is pack my bag and get out of victoria. great. and i'm sick again. which is so sickening. i was so excited when i asked my mom to sign the consent form for donating blood, and yesterday- i fell sick. like OH MAN. that's like the BEST thing that has happened to me the whole week lah.

annoyed.annoyed.annoyed.annoyed.

i think i'm annoying myself. well, i really can't be bothered anymore. my heart and head is just bursting with emotions that i can't think properly, rationally. so, so sorry for this incoherent entry.

i hate it when people tell me stuff halfway and leave me hanging. i hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it. hate it.

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i just feel like crying. ):