i'm beginning to feel so. -raH- i don't know! just feel so sheesh. and of course, who else but dearest ms ng can get me into such a mood?

anyway alot of things happened between the sec4s and ms ng during this short time of camp and post camp. basically i was the one directly involved in all the smsing and i dragged panny in because i was just dying under all her smses. thanks panny for being there to listen and trying to cheer your darling ng up in hope of turning the table! well, admit it, she loves you.

okay, so what exactly did she do to get me into this don't-really-know-what-to-do mood? well, basically i only have one thing to say about her- like me, she finds it hard to let go. let go of what? well. many things. but for me, it's definitely not as extreme as her. but i really don't understand why she can get so mean and so urgh.

quotes from her smses: [the rest are kinda private. or should i say, it's not sensitive enough on my part if i post them up.haaa.]

"...i'll wash my hands off nygg!"
"i say your whole batch needn't come back..."

righht. that's more then enough to emphasise how serious things have become. basically my relationship with ng is okay, maybe more to the positive side, cause yah i do feel that she's capable and stuff. but still, sometimes it really makes me wonder whether or not she hates me or she simply detests working with me. talk about PGA. now she's talking about complacency. and the nice thing is that she never makes herself clear. sigh.

just yesterday she sent me a 12 parts long message trying to explain why she was angry with us. you know how long 12 parts is? =/ okay that's not the point. the point is i don't think she's really that angry cause she actually bothered to explain, BUT why explain if you don't want to hear how we feel? is it really not necessary to hear us out? haish. i really don't know. don't feel like blogging anymore. really not in the mood.

-post camp bluees. =((