Do you know the real reason behind disliking someone? well, nobody can really explain why. maybe not rationally. when one dislikes another, they always explain it in a way whereby the other party did something that doesn't accomodate with one's own character and morals. It's when you see something that YOU don't like, that YOU can't stand, that YOU think is irritating, that YOU see it as bitchy.

Isn't the word, YOU so self-centered?

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Don't you think that hating someone is all due to one's own self-centeredness? well, i finally came to realise that. or should i say that it was God that enlightened me about it. There was a period of time i kept questioning myself what the hell is anger. why do we have anger inside us? if God wants us to love one another, then why is there still hatred? why is there still anger and all the more, emotions.

Anger is something that God uses to mould our character, to make us realise that we are not perfect, we are so full of flaws that we don't even get to see how pathetic we ware, but only see how worthless others can be. We are just so blinded by how we actually are. And as we become more and more self-centered, there is no how that you can see the faults that lie in one's own self, but only those of others. To you, it's as though you are perfect, there is no such thing as compromise when it comes to the person you dislike, or even a person whom you think, are not worth to befriend you. That is so worthless in getting to know.

In this world, there will bound to be someone that will not like you.

Why? that's simple.

that is because all of us aren't perfect.

If we are perfect, then it only should be right that all of us love each other. don't you agree that the perfect compromises with the perfect? Don't you think only harmony can compromise with harmony and not that of evil? well, since all of us are so different and unique in one way or another, there is simply no way which we can actuallly love everyone that we meet. The people that you don't like are put into your life, not for an excuse to make you life miserable, but think again.

They are the ones that spit into your life, telling you things that not just simply anyone will. From here, you can learn, improve and become more holy and Godly. For it is only Godly and the righteous that gets to die young. i learnt, never to get so bothered about how others find me. there will definitely be people arond me that can't stand me for nuts, but still, at the same time, there will always be someone loving me, longing to spend more time with me. it's the same for everyone.

no one can escape the vicious cycle of conflict.

So what if i don't like this certain person? it doesn't make me a greater person; neither does it prove that i am a much better person compared to him/her. also, so what if you think that it's just a way of expressing how you feel? if it is so, then why bother going around to ensure that everyone around you, your close friends also don't like that person? Is it not childish and ungodly to behave like that? But i am only degrading myself, to stoop so low that i can just go on and on talking about someone else's bad points, trying so hard to make others see the same way as i do. From here, i am already breaking the commandment of loving everyone that i know, including my enemies.

How to love your enemies? some people find this totally absurd. like huh? love your enemies? then what's the point of having enemies in the first place. well, it's not simple to love your enemies. i'm serious. satan is the devil, and he is always against God, doing all sorts of things to disrupt His plan, but i can firmly say that, yes, Jesus still loves satan. He loves him, hoping against hope that one day he will be able so see his wrongs and wake up to repent. but that case only applies to Jesus, one can't hope for others to repent, not unless you yourself repent.

Repent for what? What did i do that needs repentance? Ask yourself, is not liking someone a sin? Yes. it is. why then. That's simple. Because you, yourself, is not perfect. no man is higher then any other. Although all of us possess different flaws, but so? that doesn't give you the right to go around talking about other's flaws and pin-pointing that the person is just completely hopelss in changing.

Change YOURSELF first before trying to tell others how imperfect they are.

Though your flaws aren't the same as hers, and though you know it's wrong to behave like that. repent first for yourself! help the latter to change! Since you know what she's doing is wrong, then love her by praying for her to change one day, hoping that one day she will be able to see why she is wrong.

Look into yourself and SEE, don't you yourself have lots of other flaws that you have yet to change? haven't you seen so many out there in the same way, can't seem to stand the way you do things? I finally understood. why is there anger inside us, why are there people around us that we can't seem to compromise with. why are there still so many conflicts around in this world? the day whereby everyone is perfect will never come.

Somewhere in a far away place where one don't know where but from faith can see, a beautiful and gorgeous place, heaven.

I'm sorry for all i have done. I'm sorry for all the words that i have said. I hope that one day you will soon come to understand me.