i just got back my physics paper today. ='(( when i saw the marks written on the cover page of paper 2, i couldn't help it and broke down. okayy. fine. can understand why some people find it so hard to accept that i should be crying over an A2 for my physics while others are out there struggling to just PASS it. =/ but still, i was aiming for an A1 and i didn't it. in fact i missed it by THREE BLOODY MARKS. ='(( i ran outside the audi and started crying..shanru and tiff came after me. i was just so disappointed in myself lahx. i don't know. anyway i sux yah? how on earth can i possibly dream of an A1 for my physics which has always been so suxy.

cmh came out and talk to me. she chased tiff and shanru back in. so evil. leave me alone outside with her. don't know, but she's definitely not the teacher that i wanted to see at that moment, cause as usual, i let her down. i will always remember her face expression when she looked at me telling me that i underperformed for my physics in midyears, and that my potential was an A1. so nice of her. actually i seriously considered running off to find janet ng, don't know, like know that she'll be able to comfort me and stuff. but in the end, i still had to go back into the audi, though i didn't want to go in so soon, but i bet by all means that cmh won't leave me alone until she sees me go in. rah. but tnx for her concern anyway..=')

anyway, i went in and tried to be a good girl and do what cmh asked me to do, and that was to check my paper really thoroughly to see whether i could find anymore marks. but like hallo? i needed 5 more marks lah to get a 111/150 for total so that in percentage it will be a 75%...all i could find was 2 miserable marks. like it will make any difference? seriously considered not writing the questions on the front cover to ask for more marks cause it doesn't even make a diff...but i did in the end. haish. today is a really bad day. so my L1R5 is stuck at 10 points. i really really hope to get into vjc..according to shuqi, she says that it will be easy to get into hcjc with 10pts, so vjc won't be much of a problem, but huh..i really don't know. this year's competition for jcs are like so strong? dragon year remember?? =/

so here are my updated results, they aren't exactly very amazing though, alot of people out there are like getting single digits. [those freaks from com 1] yeah..
English: B3 [janet ng scolded me cause i got a B3 for my english. she warned me not to
screw up my compo again during o levels.]
HCl: C6 [as usual. my cl sux btw.]
Amaths: A1
Emaths: A1
Chemistry: A1
Physics: A2 [s e r i o u s l y d i s a p p o i n t e d]
Geography: B3
Combined Humans: A2

yup. after that tiff, shanru, luling and me went to study in the library. was acutally playing bridge with siyou, mel and luling at first. was actually waiting for dearest ms ng to msg me the meeting time that she wanted to meet us. but i didn't dare to call her, cause she might be invigilating a sec1 class for their exams. so at 2.05pm i rang her up. as usual- no one answered. so chieh hwee, ngohs and lowly decided to go find her. said i would join them soon after i finished my game. and when i saw ng, guess what she said? she said, i thought i msged you during recess to tell you that today cannot? oh right. so nice of her to say that she supposedly msg me. i hate this kindof thing. make me feel so guilty for making 6 other people to stay back in school and wait with me when they could have gone home to study or even to sleep. =/ but seriously, i didn't receive her msg lahs.

so we were in the library. but we didn't end up studying, we ended up talking. it was the first time both tiff and me talked about that issue in front of each other. both of us broke down, well not that bad, just a few precious tears. i stress on the word "PRECIOUS" well, cause some people aren't worth us crying for. anyway, we had a good talk and felt better after that. then i only had enough time to study a quarter of a chapter of geography. haaa. still got study k! okayy..next time cannot slack like that le!

OH YES!!! i'm so excited! guess what!! Alec Su [su yong peng] is like in my aunty's house now!!!!! WAHHHHHHHH..her house is like right behind ours!!! he's SO HANDSOME wahhhh. i hope i can just get to see him in face. but i don't think i can already...!! uRgh. nevermind..my mom say aunty's going to ask him to give me a photo of his..=))) oh man. he's not my idol lahx..but hes damn shuai can! the shuaiest person i ever seen before..wahahah. so cute. so handsome. =) #grinx# maybe i shall sneak off to aunty's house later and see whether i can catch a glimpse of him before he leaves..he's flying back to taiwan tonight lohs! sad. bLeah. anyway he was really damn cool on tv last night during the cancer charity show! wahhahahs. [=

okayy. at least at the end of a sad day, i still have something to cheer me up..and that's su yong peng!!!! wahha. wierd~ ok..see dorinda so sad today lohs. but i'm really disappointed in my physics! urgh. so must give me 100 hugs after you read this entry lohs! wahhas. soon i'll have lotsa hugs! =)

lastly, janet ng rawks. tan yew ling rawks too. [=