i don't know why. but i suddenly feel so..uRgh. i don't know lahx. my minds been thinking about stuff again. -raH- shouldn't have been, cause prelims is seriously less then a month later.=/ ahh. nvm. i suddenly feel that if, IF there was to be just one important person to walk out of my life right now. i really don't know how my life is gonna be like anymore.

sometimes i'll think to myself. how nice if i wasn't borned into this family where there are so many rules and regulations to follow. why can't i have another daddy and mommy who can like understand me more. and not have so many siblings in which i have to live up to their standards and expectations. but would i really feel that it is 'nice' if everything is taken away from me? i don't think so.

i'll miss my mom and her delicious cooking. her nice perfume and warm-loving hug, her loud voice and her constant nagging. i'll miss dad for his cuteness, his mahjong craze, and the way he wakes me up in the morning. i'll miss my sisters, for their care and concern, for their listening ears, for support whenever i feel lost. i'll miss by brother, for being my soul playmate since young, for all the childish and spastic quarrels that we always get into, for being the best brother one can ever have.

i'll miss huilin and sonia, for their understanding, for their playfulness, for their listening ear and 2 shoulders to cry on.[people usually only have 1 shoulder to cry on, i'm lucky, i have 4.] i'll miss huixin and huiyi, for their childishness, for their company, for all the laughter we had together. i'll miss the MSUs, for all the hardwork we slogged through, for all the laughter and tears, for all the hugs and kisses, for all the purity throughout.

and i know i'll miss many many more.