todays valentines day.=) woke up in the morning to realise i received 5 msgs when i was busy slping away. aniwae. here goes:

-huixin: have i evr told u i care? no.but i do. really?yes. how much? v.much. still? always. 06.32
-phyllis: Hi d3earie...happy vday. =) 00.45
-xiaoyi: have i evr told u i care? no. but i do. really? yes. how much? v.much. still? always. 00.17
-mr tay: thank you very much for the gifts. =) n all i can in order to return u is to gif u 100% of my attention in teaching.=) 11.30
-yueting: if you ever need a friend..n there's 100 steps between us..u just hafto take 1 step to get near me..n i'll take 99 steps to be there for you!

real swt of u guys. #huGs# its been a long time since i got 5 consecutive msgs, each meaning smt special altogether. aniwae.it was arnd 6.35am when i woke up, reckon it was dear huixins msg tt woke me up, but oh well. tnx girl!=D ok.it was now tt i suddenly rem i still havent found marching music for the parade. crap. but can u lyk tell me hu will haf these kindof music wan..even band pple dun haf. i ask dozens of pple,n i still cldn get it. so i tried searching my house again. n i ended up all pissed n fustrated cos i cant seem to find any instrumental pieces in my house at all. ha! tok about marChing mUsiC.=/

left house at 7.15am..okay. im being spastic. lyk i was suppose to meet minyuan at 8am, but tt doesnt gimme the reason y i left house so early. but tts not the point, haiya i dunno lah.i cant seem to rem y i left house so early either. ohoh! i found this cd tt is the ndp'97 track cd. well.its a dear precious to me,cos when i was listening to it,a wonderful memory n experience of mine came back to me,flooding me with more emotions again.it was a song tt i sang during ndp'97 along wif all the other kids.it was beautifully sang,ok,not cos im in it,but realli,the voices blended so well.=) i can vaguely rem receiving the letter frm yamaha asking me to go n try out,so i jst blurly went n blurly ended up as part of the grp.=)

huixin msged me asking me to bring street directory for her since she wanted to go to samuel's house n leave him smt in the mail box,n since she didn noe the way,she asked me for help.but my precious memory kindly left the street directory on the seat when it was gladly on my lap while i was in the car..=/so huixin hadta call up boobsy to ask her bring. hahaha! sorry girl,my mind was realli preoccupied this morning.=( hais.

the camp tok today was totally crap.i jst onli found out tt im a winter person.but so?tt isnt realli much of an intake cos i sat in the stoopid audi frm 8.30-12 noon jst to noe tt im a winter person? crap. ok,nvm. smt realli stoopid happened. during the talk,deline soh asked me to go out wif her.so curiously i followed. den she started questioning me, n got me all pissed off.

d.s: i have been observing u, n i feel tt u re veri agitated.
me: HUH? agitated? im not agitated.
d.s:i was looking frm on top, n i came down to look at u, n wif all ur posture n everything, u gif me the sense tt u re agitated, n tts not very nice since we haf an external speaker here, and you re not giving her a very good impression.
[ok.frm here.i AM beginning to feel damn agitated n pissed off.]
me: //hUh?wad posture?i jst cross my leg,tts agitated? the whole damn row crosses their leg the same way n i dun see y they arent agitated.// no im not agitated.
d.s:okay, u go back in there, n i dun want to see u looking so agitated again.

lyk huh? wad the. tts lyk so spas loh. how many times did i repeat tt i wasnt agitated? #shakes head# tts the prob wif ALL teachers. they aLWAYs tink tt they're rite. oh well. wadever.

went out wif huixin,eexiu tiff n huiyi aft tt. we surprised tiff by asking her accompany us to orchard-cine. but the fact was tt mark was back frm aus since his parents hadta do smt in spore. so he came back! n he surprised her by standing outside the lift door, n when the door of the lift open,tiff got the shock of her life when she walked out. but she was super happy.=) one lucky gal hus life is totally perfect now, jst lyk a drm. to tt jerk vincent, get a life. tiff has someone tt truely makes her happy, so shuddup n get lost.

went for vday special at my church with huixin. met lynn at the bus stop. the stoopid bus driver was so irritating! the bus stopped lyk way at the back of the stop, so when it drove towards the front again, i flagged it, but the bus jST drove past. raH. wad kindof attitude is this man? plus there were many others tt wanted to boarded the bus. so irresponsible. hRmpF.

the programme was somewhat special somewhat depressing. i realised tt some pple had the same bdae as me.n huixin went, "dorinda! y re u lyk acting so wierdly" in tt irritated n matter of factly tone. so she tried making it obvious by saeing, "dorinda! can u lyk go to the back n stand?" #stares hard at her# u knew i was unwilling man. but aniwae nvm. saw stuff tt i shdn see. n tt got me all depressed.=(

after the programme,we were suppose to go samuel's house le.budden we ended up eating kfc for dinner. early early dinner, since its onli 4.30pm.i still feel kinda bad tt i didn join my cell members in the hawker centre=( sorry guys, but we onli decided to eat aft saeing bye to u guys. oh btw, i bought a pink rose for phyllis. it was a beautiful n gorgeous one, jst lyk her.=)

*im glad tt i got to see ur back view, jst before u disappeared frm my sight once again, into the midst of the crowd where i dun know when i'll be able to find u again.*


left for samuel's house,starting toking to huixin bout wad happened in shanghai. i realli shd control my emotions. lyk dun let my emotions determine my reactions so much, since i finally realised tt tt isnt realli good, so im realli trying to control, but tt doesn mean tt i wun follow my heart when i feel its right, cos it realli depends on the situation. take a good example, when im pmsing, i tend to be rather hot tempered, n easily fustrated n insulted. so, im trying to change. chill it man.

we reached there at 5.45pm. i began to wonder what i was going to do all the way til 7pm since im lyk onli meeting phyllis aft trng, which was 7+ *shrugs* one step at a time den. we went up to his house, spas huixin wanted to take a look at his front door, well, i can understand y she did tt, althou it seemed realli ridiculous, but i noe huixin, she did it right, n im behind her. took 74 all the way back to amk central. shut myself in my own world again, by jst blasting the discman into my ear n shutting myself out frm the outside.

i walked arnd amkc, jst lyk an idiot. n i realised tt i didn put my eye drops at 2pm. which was so great. so. my eyes dun hafta get well again since i give it irregular medication all the time. hais.decided to head for yio chu kang, phyllis rang me up when i was in amk station. i didn bring along my ezlink card. n wad a bother it was. i hate it when i forget to bring my ezlink card lohs! raHs. the stoopid machine jst rEFUSed to accept $10 notes..so i jst hadta go get it changed into smaller notes. den i went up. the train took 6 mins to come. phyllis gave me another ring to ask me where i was, since it realli took me some time to get tt stoopid card. knew i was suppose to feel bad, but i was jst lyk too cold n too shut off to feel bad.=(

met her when i alighted, this year however, her presents seemed to be more beautiful n presentable den mine. =/ i realised tt i didn realli keep much efforts keeping the plastic bag frm swinging so much, so much tt the fudge tt i baked was swung here n there, tt i think tt it was broken when i passed it to her. but oh well. i baked the fudge, mom said it was nice.=) so hopefully u'll lyk them too.=) she gave me this biG cup filled wif goodies. so sweet of her.=) hehs. huggLes, den we parted..im irritated, cos when i left, i realised tt i was kinda mean not realli saeing anything to her when i met her, n was kinda cold towards the meeting, lyk i didn wanna meet her at all, but hey girl, u're still as special yeah? luff u! #huGs#

i went home, 70 jst left when i reached the stand, so i waited again. but tt didn realli upset me since i didn realli feel lyk moving. jst started stoning, again. haiya. mabbe i shdnt haf gone for the vday special..den i wldn b feeling so depressed now.. ............... .........

tt kinda contradicted to wad i mentioned in my previous post.=/

n slowly, i walked home. record breaking! i tOok 40mins to walk home tt nite when normally when i walk alone, i 'll take onli 15 mins. my legs felt realli tired aft tt. bathed. n here i am. yup.

received lotsa gifts for vday this year. it was realli amazing how many pple actualli put in the effort to give gifts. feeling kinda guilty. i havent bought my patrol their vday gifts yet. hais. i didn get to go back to j8 today, so i didn get it. dun worry guys, i'll pass them to u asap! aniwae, pearly, jieying, shuqi,jan,beiqin all gave the wHOle cLass vday gifts..#looks guilty# i feel realli bad, cos pearly baked all the chocolate stuff herself, n jy folded all the hearts herself..tNx!

jes gave me a rose, n my juniors were sweet too.=) mer, wen, shu..tnx gals! weijie,hweebing oso. not to mention my dears, huixin,tiff n huiyi, joanna and jang.=) HUGs.oh n deniel(im not sure of spelling thou) frm mgs gave me a flower aft church today. tt was realli swt of her cos i jst gotta noe her today! n she has the same bdae as my mom. Yay..tt makes 3110 a even more special day.=)

okay. tt rnds up my vday. it was somewhat sweet n somewhat depressing. but i guess i enjoyed it. yup yup. wishing everyone out there. happy vdaY! =)

*im glad tt i got to see ur back view, jst before u disappeared frm my sight once again, into the midst of the crowd where i dun know when i'll be able to find u again.*